i’m just exhausted.
mentally. physically. emotionally.
these past few months have been SO crazy. it’s like, one minute i feel like i know where my life is going and then the next it’s completely changed directions and i have NO IDEA where it’s going. i’m supposed to go one direction this minute and do an aboutface and the opposite direction the next minute. i’m not single. i’m single. i have a job. i don’t have a job. i’m going to school. i’m not going to school. i have money. i don’t have money.
all of this is so stressful. i’m not eating well. i’m certainly not sleeping well.
but, i guess, even in all this stress, somehow i know that everything will be just fine. it’s just stressful in the moment. at the time. but, i look back six months and i see why things had to happen the way they did. i get it. i see it. so i do know that these new steps, or non steps, are going to be the same way. i know that i’m going to be where i need to be. i’m going to end up where i need to end up. and while it’s painful and tiring now, it will be so worth it in the end.
now, if only i could sleep for a week…