my utmost for His highest by oswald chambers for sept. 6
A river reaches places which its source never knows. And Jesus said that, if we have received His fullness, “rivers of living water” will flow out of us, reaching in blessing even “to the end of the earth” (Acts 1:8 ) regardless of how small the visible effects of our lives may appear to be. We have nothing to do with the outflow— “This is the work of God, that you believe. . .” ( John 6:29 ). God rarely allows a person to see how great a blessing he is to others.
A river is victoriously persistent, overcoming all barriers. For a while it goes steadily on its course, but then comes to an obstacle. And for a while it is blocked, yet it soon makes a pathway around the obstacle. Or a river will drop out of sight for miles, only later to emerge again even broader and greater than ever. Do you see God using the lives of others, but an obstacle has come into your life and you do not seem to be of any use to God? Then keep paying attention to the Source, and God will either take you around the obstacle or remove it. The river of the Spirit of God overcomes all obstacles. Never focus your eyes on the obstacle or the difficulty. The obstacle will be a matter of total indifference to the river that will flow steadily through you if you will simply remember to stay focused on the Source. Never allow anything to come between you and Jesus Christ— not emotion nor experience— nothing must keep you from the one great sovereign Source.
Think of the healing and far-reaching rivers developing and nourishing themselves in our souls! God has been opening up wonderful truths to our minds, and every point He has opened up is another indication of the wider power of the river that He will flow through us. If you believe in Jesus, you will find that God has developed and nourished in you mighty, rushing rivers of blessing for others.
it’s amazing to me how God will always put what i need to hear right in front of me right when i need to hear it. sometimes, and i’m certain that every other Christian can relate, i wonder what kind of influence i’m having. sometimes, i wonder how other people see me. sometimes, i wonder if people notice that i’m a Christian. and i don’t mean on here because honestly, if you haven’t figured it out by now, you need to learn how to read. i’m talking in real life. and i wonder and i criticize myself, thinking that i shouldn’t have said that or shouldn’t have done that, that a real Christian would have done it differently.
and then i read something like that. God rarely allows a person to see how great a blessing (s)he is to others. and it encourages me. i get glimpses every now and then through conversations with other people. and it usually happens when they make a comment about something that i thought no one ever noticed. and i can’t help myself, i have to pry just a little bit. sometimes i need that validation. or i think i do. and sometimes i forget that the greatest validation i could get is the fact that i’m constantly striving to be better. if i wasn’t trying to be better, to be closer, to be holier, then i wouldn’t be impacting anyone. i would be just like everyone else who is content right with where they are in life.
i love sharing my heart with all of you. sometimes it’s really really scary, sometimes it’s fun, sometimes it’s super honest, sometimes a little arrogant, but it’s always all me. all of my crazies. all of my thinking. i’m not hiding anymore. i’m not selecting what part of me everyone gets to see. i’m not just showing the good stuff, but the bad stuff. the dishonest stuff. the impure stuff. the depressed stuff. would i rather hide? yeah maybe a bit. would i rather people only saw the good stuff? yeah a bit. would i be touching people’s lives though? no. not even possible. would it be possible for me to meet some super amazing people out there such as tabitha, kim and nico?
so for all of you being touched by the river God is flowing through me, i’m so glad. and no, i don’t need to know. as long as you leave feeling more content with your life or leave thinking about something i said, i’m happy. as long as you can consider God a little more after interacting (however you do) with me, i’m ok with that. because i’m trying to live for the Bema seat. living my whole life for one day and what a day that will be.