so that’s it. i’m married now.
part of me thought that for some reason, things would feel different. things would BE different. and really, they aren’t. i mean, the only difference is that we can come HOME every night, we have TONS of food in our fridge and we can make babies all we want. otherwise, things seemed to have pretty much stayed the same.
part of me wonders sometimes what is the point of BEING married anyway? i know that it’s good when having babies but we’re not doing babies for a while. part of it is for fulfillment this side of heaven. but if i really really think about it, what is the point of living with the same person for the rest of your life and making babies with them?
maybe the key is to just NOT think about it. or to think about it in a different way. i know that marriage was created by God as the most poignant human expression of the kind of love He has for us. it’s the closest we ever come to unconditional love. a love that places another above us, for the rest of our lives. a love that requires and demands service to another person. it still seems so strange that such a monumental thing can happen and it feels like nothing happened at all. everything is still the same. james is still the same, i am still the same. we each have an additional piece of jewelry, but we’re still the same people.
i have to admit, it’s a little weird going to facebook and seeing ‘c j’ instead of ‘c v’ but i think i like it. a lot. it’s taken a bit to get used to because the ex’s last name is jensen so sometimes, i just see the ‘j’ and ‘e’ and it throws me for a bit of a loop, but then i stop and i really look at it and i see that it’s the right last name. the last name of the man that i love with ALL of my heart. the man that i want to spend the rest of my life with, even if right now that seems like a weird concept. i still can’t wait for it all. it’s going to be a wonderful life.
and i promise, i’ll get wedding pics up soon. until then, here are some of the engagement pics that we just got last week.